HELPLESSNESS
In this feeling of helplessness,
I scream to my soul and join that girl sitting alone in the dark crevices therein
The all time fear that I have carried with me ever since I was a child drips slowly and flows through the crevices
“Will I ever amount to anything?” All the voices in my head scream,
As I sink deeper, deeper to the floor of my soul
Where my heart bleeds and my brain wants to come to a standstill
” What is a life filled with dread?” They cry out
That I have to live a life where good days never feel good and bad days always feel bad
That I have to anticipate the bad moments never really knowing the pleasure of living
Is a future my heart cannot comprehend
So I sink deeper still,
Deeper till I drown in that river that flows through the crevices
And the nuance is not lost on me
That I take my last breath in my own river of helplessness
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